back and forth, up and down, in then out...i cant understand why though, well i do for the most part. but i cant stop this crap with her, do i stay or leave. for everything and everyone that tells me to leave, there still exists that spot in my heart that has her name on it until i rip it out. yesterday, i witnessed what i always witness when she is at the pool and im not, and there exists alcohol. granted she is not mine, but for the gigantic amount of peopl that think shes mine, i look terrible for dealing with that.
the way that i was treated by people who i thought were better than that yesterday was terrible, and the way they talked shit about a friend that i hold close hurt as well. i have come to the assumption that we have to devise a plan for people to dissociate her from me, and for her to not be portrayed as a slut like she was yesterday. becuase i cant take it anymore, sooo many people came up to me yesterday, "are you dating that sketchy girl?" UGH STFU!! look on facebook it says im single, and u dont see me getting mad at her, and u dont see her always by me, take the fucking hint we just hang out....thats it, dont judge me because you have judged her, if you know me then why the fuck would you change what you think about me just because i have a friend?
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