...last night was weird

so it seems as if my blog that i had originally intended to be about BS and nonimportant things is turning into a place for me to talk about this girl that is my friend, but not my girlfriend. well last night, she flipped out and couldnt explain wtf was wrong with her, ladies, dont cry in front of a dude that cares about you and expect to be able to walk away without explaining what happend...ok?

im sooo....

back and forth, up and down, in then out...i cant understand why though, well i do for the most part. but i cant stop this crap with her, do i stay or leave. for everything and everyone that tells me to leave, there still exists that spot in my heart that has her name on it until i rip it out. yesterday, i witnessed what i always witness when she is at the pool and im not, and there exists alcohol. granted she is not mine, but for the gigantic amount of peopl that think shes mine, i look terrible for dealing with that.

the way that i was treated by people who i thought were better than that yesterday was terrible, and the way they talked shit about a friend that i hold close hurt as well. i have come to the assumption that we have to devise a plan for people to dissociate her from me, and for her to not be portrayed as a slut like she was yesterday. becuase i cant take it anymore, sooo many people came up to me yesterday, "are you dating that sketchy girl?" UGH STFU!! look on facebook it says im single, and u dont see me getting mad at her, and u dont see her always by me, take the fucking hint we just hang out....thats it, dont judge me because you have judged her, if you know me then why the fuck would you change what you think about me just because i have a friend?

so....i didnt do it, i didnt cut her off, i think that im better than that, and as long as i dont get too distracted, ill be fine, perhaps the fight we had today served to set lines that cant be crossed, but who knows...here she comes peace

so i think i post alot but

why is it that sometimes the things we love the most in our lives are actually not good for us?
well i have come to that conclusion, and im gonna pick myself up and emotionally detach because thats protocol...where is the next one...im looking.

http://www.livestrong.com/article/14712-developing-detachment

did i mess up

so i just woke up with a strange feeling, and i think i may have been wrong for what i did, but idk about it. am i losing something i should hold on to? but i shouldnt be like this, its not mine nor will it ever be, but the enigma that it is, is rather comforting, and i am beginning to understand this "comfort" theory, and should not have judged before understanding, im sorry.

being alone

so, as you guys know, i have this friend thats here...alot, i mean i dont mind it, i actually enjoy it, but sometimes its liberating to have some alone time, to sit, write, and slack. but yea, i faked a fight today to see what would happen, and...i dont know yet, idk if she reads this, "but what you did to me i did to you" -Will I Am

some thoughts on women

So, I have this "friend" that........well sometimes i wish was more than a friend, but i wouldnt dare damage the bond that we have because its so intense, genuine and fun as hell 80% of the time. hanging out with her has opened up a new world to me, ive learned the things that about women that guys dont even think about!! if i were to try and post them...wow that would take a while. but ive learned that women truly do think differently than we do, and sometimes we need to just wait and see if everything stabilizes before making rash decisions. but yea. we should be careful how we treat these women in our lives because all we are doing is messing them up for someone else to later try to understand and treat properly. thats all for now!!

The beginning of the 335 as a real competitor in the dyno queen game

http://www.e90post.com/forums/showthread.php?t=248764

apparently, they got over 500wheel out of this car, no pics, but a significant improvement

first post,

well kids, Im the kind of person that likes 90's style nostalgia, and here goes some