did i mess up

so i just woke up with a strange feeling, and i think i may have been wrong for what i did, but idk about it. am i losing something i should hold on to? but i shouldnt be like this, its not mine nor will it ever be, but the enigma that it is, is rather comforting, and i am beginning to understand this "comfort" theory, and should not have judged before understanding, im sorry.