so its over, for real this time

you have hurt me long enough, although you dont know half of the pain i went through (unless u have read this blog already), because i was in love with you, its time for it to come to an end. it is obvious your not willing to love me in the way that i love you, so i am severing myself from you. cutting away all the strings that i have created to attach myself to you. it is time for me to find a girl who is worthy of my affection because you ma'am certainly are not! if i could hurt you the way that you hurt me, i wouldnt, but im fairly certain you would do it again, and that some poor guy is next in line to be used and abused by you. the way you do things doesnt make them seem bad, but at your core you dont care, you were just there enjoying the experiences we had for yourself, and was not associating any of those things with memories of me, and for that FUCK YOU! If you knew how much i truly cared, and how much of you i was in love with, it would fucking shock you. i was into everything about you from the way your toes move when your excited to how cute and feminine you sound when you wake up, and even more than that. but its too late, you shall never be the subject of such affectations that any heterosexual female would die for. good job on fucking things up with me, and to think, if only you had made things clear and not lied as evidenced in the things i have written on here earlier, if only you were clear and honest you wouldnt be losing me, i can move on and find someone that wants to do all the things we used to do, but you cant find another me. these past few days have made me realize how much you are going to miss me, sending me random pictures. you sent me a picture of the back of an M6 with an M6 badge on it and asked me if it was an M6 who does that? and why would you send me a picture of a saab? get real girl the key to deception is to not break character. at this point, i just want you to stop, we can be acquaintances but i cant be anything but more than friends with you, and thats not going to happen so i guess this is adieu.